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| 08:31pm 10/01/2006 |
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mood:  happy music: back at one (mine and duanes song)
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hay my homies. i am so hyper right now. well i was i should say. now some one got me all emo. errr i hate that. someone asked me out and i told them i didnt like them like that in the nices way i could ever say, and hes being all emo bout it and i hate it. and then i am also pissed at tom cuz hes fucking around with chicks wen we are goin out. to day a whole bunch of crap happend. like i was hangin with duane and we madeout. and i am still dateing tom, but owell cuz that basterd is doin shit with otehr chicks. and we both said we were ganna break up with each other, and i need to get alhold of him so me and duane can happen again. i swear duanes on my mind 247.and i was talking to my old firend ryan and he said i would never date him or anything with him cuz hes in the middle school. and i tried to tell him IDC WAT PPL THINK! YA U HEAR OR READ THIS RYAN IDC!!!!!! lol.i havent had someone else on my mind that i use to be in love with. or i should say like alot. cuz i am finaly over him! ya thats right and i mean it this time. well g2g ryans buggin me lol love u pepz lots welll at least my homies! |
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| 05:07pm 05/01/2006 |
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mood:  content
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hay pepz wats up. today was a good day for i guess. i just need to get over duane. everyone says we flirt alll the time, but i dont think we do. also some body is e-mailing me stuff saying that he loves me and gets jealouse how me and duane flirt(witch we dont) and wont say who he is. he says that he dont have the guts to tell me who he is just yet. and i want to kno who it is. today ashley M really cheesed me off with her and her lil boy friend. well it really wasnt ashley it was more her b/f. they were standing in front of the school for like 45 min so i just left. he really chesses me off, i wanted to slap him today. but like i said i just walked away. but n-ways. i got a my space finally. chris did it for me cuz i have freaking clue how to do any of that stuff. I GOT MY CAST OFF FINALLY!!! i am soo happy o finaly got it off. everybody says i am probly ganna break it again, but i aint. i hate cast so much errrr. lol well i g2g i want to check out my my space if u want me to add u or u add me just ask! ttu pepz later |
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| 07:18pm 27/12/2005 |
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mood:  confused
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hay yall, havent wrtiiten in here in a while. so how was ur pplz x-mas. mine was shitty. my mohter had to open some of my freaking presnts cuz my dam cast. then my freaking b/f broke up with me the day befor x-mas eve. and i was all emo over him for a few days. then i was happy again cuz he was with me and mindy and a hole bunch of other ppl at the mall. and we were talking and i thought we would have a chance again, but now i am haveing my douts. but then again idk |
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| I HATE GUYS!!!! |
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| 11:54pm 23/12/2005 |
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mood:  depressed music: back at one (mine and duanes song)
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i swear to god i hate guys sometimes. today duane broke up with me. he said till hes ungrounded then we could go back out, but everytime a guy says that they never come back. i have been all emo allday. and i hate geing emo. i am ganna stay single for a while, cuz i am so sick of all this bull shit, i am tired of getting my heart broken from guys. first josh then i got over josh after 2 years, and then duane does this to me. i bet hes ganna go out with mindy. but then again i dont think mindy would do that to me. well i kno she wouldnt. also me and duane might also o back out cuz he was all like i love u when w got off the phone. but idk. theres a thousand things goin threw my mind bout him. hes in my head and wont get out. and i hate it!!!!!! well i am goin to bed hopefuly i will have a better day tomarrow. merry fucking christmas duane!! |
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| 09:18pm 18/12/2005 |
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mood:  sad music: back at one (mine and duanes song)
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hay yall wats up. i swear to god i fuckin and tired of ppl starting shit with me and duane. someone told him that i was ganna break up with him and i never siad that. and i told him that and i dont think he baleves me and its pissing me off. cuz i really do love him with all my heart, and sheldon has to fuck it up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then i went to my FRIENDS toms house to hang out for a lil and duane thinks i cheated on him. and i didnt alls we did was watch tv and talk. thats it then i cmae home. but wfe. well i am getting in the shower then bed ttu pepz later. |
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| 09:05pm 05/12/2005 |
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hay yall i am so happy me and duane are goin back out. its so great i am happy again, and its funny cuz we are both grounded to day. but ya just wanted to say that i am goin to bed now tt yall later |
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| 10:39pm 28/11/2005 |
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mood: confused music: one wish
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whne u told me u love me i was so stupid to think it was true, when i said it back i felt all funny inside, but a good funny. now when i say i love u the funny feeling is gone, and i dont like it. cuz i dont think i mena it. |
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| 10:19pm 28/11/2005 |
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mood:  crazy music: fall out boy nobody puts baby in the corner
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hay yall. today was a crazy day. first after school i went with ashley to get her drivers linceses, and fisrt her mom had to get her lil bro so she left me and ash there and they called are # and we couldnt go up cuz we needed her mom then like 30 min later her mom gets there and they took so long cuz alex is a dork, then we got stuck up there for lik another 30 min and they finally call are # and she couldnt get it cuz she didnt have her school id. so then we went home and i came here and watched tv for like a hour, then met mindy seedo and james up at the school and we sat in the rain then. then we seen nick and tommy and walked to mindys houses then to nicks and tommy left then we all watched a movie and we were all soked. but it was all good, then nick wa sputting his arm around me and all that and i think he likes me. and me and duane broek up cuz i want to be single for a while. so i can like have friends with befits and stuff and i dont want the hassel of a b.f right now. then after the movie was over me and mindy walked to her house and then we walked up tp the store then i came home, o by the time i got home i was veary veary wet. but o well i love the rain well g2g love yall!! |
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| 10:53pm 27/11/2005 |
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If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want -- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you... |
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| happy thanksgiveing!!!!!! |
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| 11:24pm 24/11/2005 |
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mood: confused music: one wish
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hay yall! todya was a veary busey day. i ate so much freaking food. i think i am getting fat now. lol. but all day i felt down a lil. its really heard to explane, but i feel so in love at times. but idk who i am inlove with. its really strange. and then when i talk to josh i feel so heart broken. (from are past) thinking that i did something wrong, maybe i did. but idk hes cool as a friend. and then i talk to scott and wish that me and him were still dateing. and when i talk to tommy i wish he would come back! and stay! but he isnt staying till next year. and i am suppoes to go to my new school for 10 grade cuz my parents hate lincoln. but idk.
but i am so fat i had 3 pices of turkey mashpotos corn greenbeans salda then i had 2 pices of oreo pie and a pice of pumpkin pie and now i am haveing some more turkey. so i am sure i am ganna gane some more weight. today my dad was talkng bout my great grandma (lil grandma) i miss her so much its drives me crazy. i still have a jar or jelly beans she gave me when i was like 6 or 7 and i still havent eatten any.
Empty
theres not much left
to say
I've
struggled and lost a
fearsome battle
You
lied strait to my
broken heart
Tears
I cannot stop, burn
my eyes
I
try to smile but
it hurts
Say
something, anything, please, love
me again
My
silent words mean nothing
at all
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To face another heart break?
I think I'd rather not..
I wouldn't risk the chance
Of another getting caught
Cause that first time it broke me
The second I'm ripped apart
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| 08:24pm 22/11/2005 |
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mood:  naughty
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i learnd a leasson today, if u really do like/love someone, then u should never give up. i mena like u date other ppl but let the sertin someone ur alwyas there for them and u will alwyas love u. they may come back. now he didnt come back but things are starting to go back to normal for us, but idk yet. tomarrow is ganna be great(someone knos y) lol but today was a pritty good day. i only had to go to school for a day and a ahlf this week. at least i wont get any of my gay classes. me and duane are doin ok but idk if its ganna last any longer for us. but will see wat happnes. god i cnt wait till tomarrow lol. dont ask. its getting so cold out and i cant wait till thnaksgiveing so i can get fat lol. but x-mas is ganna be better, hopefly i get wat i really want, i was ganna last year till my mom siad something to my dad. i cant wait tilli go to my new school hopeful its soon. lincoln has to much drama! its driveing me crazy and most of the guys there are assholes. but o weel i g2g talk to ppl so i dont keep then waitin any longer !!
i love _ _ _ _!! can u guess who it is? |
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| 09:44pm 21/11/2005 |
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hay yall havent written in here in a while. so ya i thought i would update u pepz. lol i am so sick of being sick. i lost my voice for like 4 days and every body called me miss.squeekers, and i hate it so much. errrrrrr. lol. me and duane richards, things are goin pritty goo di guess. we have been dateing for 2 weeks. but ya well i g2g cuz i feel like shit. |
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| 07:55pm 17/10/2005 |
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hay ya all, wats up havent wrotten in here in a while. i have the hottest boy friend ever!!!!!! he is a hot punk dude. but ya, today was pritty fun i was hangin out with nibbles (amber nibbler) pritty much all day. we went to watch the guy at football. i love that cuz they wear tight pants and u can see there ass really well and some of the guys have nice ass's. lol but ya. jess is gone now **teartear** i miss my lil blonde. lol but ya i never knew so many ppl like me. (not maneing names ask if u wanna kno so bad) i might like this kid kanny but idk yet i need to get to kno him better. and josh hook was being a butt today. errrrrr. but thats not a shocker. lol just......kidding. wow i have a new thing i have been doin that all day now the just.......kidding. idk y. its driveing me crazy. but ya, i cant wait till tommy comes back. YAY!! well g2g nibbles keeps iming me. thoes of u who dont have my s/n just im me at sarahfeeny90. but befor i go i have to say something bout kenny (lol dont ask) lets see kenny seems like a kool dude, he asked me if i like him but idk yet. like i said i need to get to kno him better to see if i do. but its great we have been talking on aim for a while and still dont kno wat we look like, never seen each other in person lol well g2g nibbles is imin me like crazy love yall! |
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| 10:37pm 02/10/2005 |
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mood:  loved music: my humps black eyed peas
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hay ya all, havent writtin in here in a while, pluse i am kinda bord. homecomeing was fun. i broke up with john, and ya. he came over today trying to get me to go back out with him but i dont want to. pluse i already have a man lined up lol. but ya homecomeing was fun, but KAYLE NEEDS TO STOP HER FUCKING SHIT RIGHT NOW AND FIGHT HER ONW BATTLES. SHE A DUMB ASS BITCH AND I HATE HER SOOO MUCH!!BUT SHE TO FUCKING WEAK AND CHIKEN TO FIGHT HER OWN FUCKING BATTLES. i alos hate it how ppl get into things that they dont belong into. its dirves me crazy how ppl cant do shit there self!! but ppl ar elike that and ya, well i g2g talk to tommy :-) i love him so much lol! |
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| 10:47pm 30/09/2005 |
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today was pritty fun i guess, my school had the big prep ralley it was fun. but my throat herts. tomarrow if the homecomeing dance, i wish i was goin with someone i really still like but it aitn ganna happen, pluse i am goin out with john earl and that sertin person has a g/f. but w/e. josh told me i should break up with john i was thinking bout it but idk et, hes like emo. its strange. and hes so prude, but w/e i still love him i guess. i swear i love high school there are so man hot guys and it just great, this 12 grader likes me his name is david robert asnd james still like me along with chris and and ryan smith. but i am glad i have a b.f so they cant ask me out and if they do i wont really hert there feelings. i cant wait till wensday. i am gana be 15!! YAY! but i dont wanna do anything this year. i am gann do something really big next year though. lol but to bad i wont be around here anymore **teartear** today chase asked me if i was still pissed at him and i was like HELL YA! thoes of u who dont kno i went out with him on friday and i found out he was cheating on me and broke uo with him on monday. he really pisses me off. chase is driveing me crazy hes always looking at me in the halls and it freaks me out. but idk alls i want is a im srry sarah and i wount be mad at him anymore. and i was ganna tell him that at the prep ralley but i think i might just let him figure that out. lately josh hooks has been sitting with me at lunch, its pritty kool i guess but still he was trying to put me b/f down andi reminded him bout wat hes done to me in the past and idk. i still kinda am upset bout that, but wat can i say life goes on but u can always see the scars and the scars remind u of the past. so ya well g2g tired as hell and need to be awake for tomarrow cuz i am ganna be buey as hell! love yall ttu ppl later **mauh** |
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| 10:50pm 17/09/2005 |
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mood:  cheerful music: PAT BENTAR SONGS!!!
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i hate all the drama that teens have. y cant ppl just look on the bright side of things or forget bout it. instead they just say there ganna beat the shit out of you. like josh has been being a total ass and i am just forgetting bout him. i am so happy that i am over him. and like thers just so much drama. its driveing me crazy!! ERRRRR
i am so happy my b-day is in like bout 2 weeks. ya. lol i got this love letter today from a guy (not sayin who) but i mean i dont want to go out with him but then again i do. idk its veary heard to explane. but ya. but ya for the past week and a half i ahve learnd how to not have so much drama. i eather go hang out with friends and forget bout that person or w/e it is. or just look on the bright side of things. for example i was at a football game and someone pissed me off (ryan zidar) so i just got hyper and he got so pissed cuz i wasnt payin attention to him ,then to get attention he threw a penny down my shirt.
but ya the past week or so i ahve forgottne bout it all. just get hyper and do stupid shit like me nicole and ash;ey did ( rock the truck) lmao dont ask insider. but ya well g2g yall |
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| 07:48pm 13/09/2005 |
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hay pepz i thought i would write in here cuz i havent in a while. so much shit has been goin on and ya. today was a shitty day. fisrt amber was talking to timmy to see if he wanted to go back out, cuz we went out in the 7 grade. but he said he dont like me like that, he just wants to stay friends. and so many guys want to go out with me, but if choose one of them i will be settling and i dont want to do that. the 2 guys i like probly wouldnt go out wiht me, well i kno one of them wont. but idk. maybe i will just stay single till i find someone. some david kid asked me to homecomeing like a few days ago, but i said no cuz i didnt kno him. so ya. tomarrow i go to see if i have to get sugrey on my finguer i hope i dont. so ya. me and kayla wrote this thing bout me her and a sertin someone. but after i told him eveything i felt bout him last night i dont feel over him. i kno ppl tell me hes a ass hole but idc wat ppl think. this is it
HIM
i did love YOU and so did SHE, YOU played ur games, well now YOU got a gmae over. WE are so over YOU now. HE is way better for US. HE dont play no games like YOU. so i guess WE are sayin this is goodby for love and hello for just friends and this time WE mean it! and dont try to change that with UR love lines!!!
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| 05:23pm 01/09/2005 |
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high school is ok. i have had like 3 guys ask me out already. i want to go out with someone but he said he wants to be frineds. i am so sick of falling for guys and thne they turn around and do that. and me and scott aint goin good at all. we never see each other at all and never talk. so idk i think i am ganna go single and wait for a guy i really like. i also like a kid name joey. hes hot, but i dont really kno him so ya. but other than that high school is ok. its pritty much like the middle school but more freedom. lol well g2g ttupl |
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| 12:34am 13/08/2005 |
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most of these i found and some i wrote!
This little girl is afraid to go home
afraid of being beat and thrown
she runs to her room and closes the door
she doesn't want this anymore
"oh no, daddy is here!"
she cries in fear
she tries to be quiet, don't make a sound
But her dad storms in, and she is found
"no daddy! your drunk again,
Please don't put me through this pain!"
he grabbed her by the hair
Threw her into a chair
"Stop it daddy, your hurting me!"
he held her tight, so she couldn't get free
again, he beat her bruised little body
kicked her till she was all bloody
"shut your face up you little s|ut!"
Yelled her dad, then her body he cut
she couldn't bare the pain
she doesn't even know why she is to blame
she shuts her eyes
and prays to die
she opens them up, and calls to her mum
she watches as her dad kills her just for fun
now this girl is scared & in tears
she cries out, hoping someone hears
her dad kills her
leaves her out in the cold to suffer
this girl is only 3
and was murdered by her own daddy!!
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Buildings burn,People die,Hearts break,We all lie,Trust fails,Friends forget
Parents scream,Kids throw fits,Clothes rip,Leaves fall,Life is hard
We can't win them all,Boys are mean,Girls cry,Sometimes you just
Have to say goodbye,Cars crash,People mourn,Babies live
Who weren't suppose to be born,Rain falls,The sun sets,People loose money
On worthless bets,Families move,Friends are apart,Every day Is a fresh new start,I loved him They very first day,I fell so hard,And didn't get a say
But no matter what happens,Or what goes wrong,Just remember
That life goes on...
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thoes are the only two iam gann aput up right now.
i have been thinkin of my great grandma alot lately. she was so inportant.she passed away when i was in like the 5 grade. and i mis her just so much.i want erh to come back.. i just want to get to see her again. i keep haveing falsh backs from when i was at the hospital when she was dieing. i rember holding erh hand.and i rember that nose when she was gone. i kno shes in the heaven above, but i want her here with me. thats all i want. like every year theres always that one wish, and every year i wish she was there at least once again. even though i kno it aint ganna happen i still do it. sometiems at night i just lay in my bed craying i just really want her back! |
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| 10:53pm 04/08/2005 |
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i loved him soo much. when he said thoes 2 words and my heart just dropped. i just wnted to die. my heart was once again in a million pecies. after wat josh did to me i thought i would never be happy with a guy like that again. then me and tommy started goin out, i was happy again. i was soo happy. but its just gone. when he moved i knew it wasnt goin to work out but i still gave it a chance. but its all just gone. now hes ahpp with ashley. and ashley asked me if i was mad. and i told her no, cuz i aint mad i am sad bout it, just crushed. but once again i kept my mouth shut. just like i have liked tommy ever since like the middle of the scholl year, but i kept my mouth shut for kayla and ashley. idk, maybe i am to fucking stupid to open my mouth. idk.
but scott, ryan and chase still like me. idk if phillip still does. but i kno i do. but idk. when me and tommy broke up for that dya and then when he asked me back out i should of said no. even though i love him sooo much it aint funny. i have loved 3 guys this much. but everytime something happend. me and phillip idk wat happend with us really. then me and josh he kept braking my heart. and now i kno he has changed and i still like him, but he wants to be friends, witch i guess thatskool. cuz he is a kool firend. and then me and tommy all this shit happend with us. these past days have been so heard for me. last night i really couldnt sleep at all. i was crying it just kept me awake thinking bout him. and how stupid i was. maybe i am just a stupid bitch. idk. this summer has been the worst, i just hate it and want school to start again, so i can see all my friends, and i am starting high school so thats pritty cool i guess. but i am also gald school is starting so i can see my friends again. maybe it will get things off my mind. like so faimly things i found out. and with all this drama i think i just need to have fun like i se to!! i think for now on i aint goin to keep my mouth shut like i have been in the past! |
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